The Hollow

8/21/2000

with nothing to do,you waste you away....where have all the people gone. They know who they are
I'm haunted by the need to be touched by something more than a memory, but then thats all I have. Are these stinking memrories of former loves, former flames, soulmates who just couldn't get it together long enough to se the future. God my soul is completely laid bare. Cannot be more open. I mean, is this depression I have a normal thing when you first get seperated. Like a soul rip opened and stolen??? I wish I could try to keep things straight in my head. You know, like a memory of fall. Amemory of when we used to be, normal. But instead I'm here in this brokein down palace, My soul ripped open from stomach to throat. And I don't have a way out.
posted by TJ Scott on 8/21/2000 | |link|

8/11/2000

well now, long time no see. does anybody really actually read these???? well it's been intresting since the last time I posted on this bad boy. intresting thing is, things just seem to keep getting worse. my girlfriend of 7 months and i broke up. It was rather intresting. She wondered why it was that I took it so well. I guess I need to explain things alittle. I was married to a women for nearly 2 years. We had been together for about 2 and a half years, living together. so when my wife left me for another man, well, I was a litle confused. Still am sorta. but I think the break up was coming for awhile, I just didn't do anything about it, and neither did she. But then I did something that at the time, if I could hold responsibility to my jugdment, then I would, I started dating again, and well, long story short, got wraped up in a little girl that well, I should have never gotten so serious with. well the relationship plummeted soon into a emotional blackmailed mess just last night in fact.with out going into all the gory details, as mentioned in this and another web log elsewhere, some how this emotional blackmailing envolved my new roomates. Not a smart move. I guess I can say I'm a little depressed. ah more later!!!!
posted by TJ Scott on 8/11/2000 | |link|

7/25/2000

Well today is the day. For 6 days now i'm going to be homeless. intresting isn't it. Actually, I might stay in another part of the city. But as the day goes by I'm gonna have to find somewhere. But in six days i'll be in a geek house with dsl, and playstations and everything. August first, I hope I can survive
posted by TJ Scott on 7/25/2000 | |link|

7/24/2000

Wel herer I am again. Tring to find a new home... t-minus 29 hours and counting
posted by TJ Scott on 7/24/2000 | |link|

So this may end up being my last post. At least for 6 days. Thats right, i've been evicted and will be homless.but thats okay, I'll will try to post to it, if anyone reads this thing anyways.
posted by TJ Scott on 7/24/2000 | |link|

7/19/2000

So here I am, 7:30 in the fucking morning, waiting for this guy whos supposed to be giving me money to work for him. So people tell me that he'll pick me up at 7:30. So an hour later, and a fight with my friend/building manager, I tell the jerk off that I don't need it, to go paint his jobs himself, and basiccally see ya. don't make me wait from 7:30 till 9:00 and expect me to come work for you
posted by TJ Scott on 7/19/2000 | |link|

7/18/2000

Why oh why mus tI be an emotional quadreplegic???? you know the kind that just can't even begin to cope with the reality around me.
It must bew that romantic in me. Poor old sap sucker. you know these days I get so tired and I can't even begin to imagine my life
as it stands right now. I keep tring to put some romantic angle on it. Oh this is to toughen me up, this can't hurt as hard as it seems,
what would tyler durdin do in this sitution????
Well you know the thing of it is, I've got so much shit to worry about right now. It's been like a white static in my ear. T
posted by TJ Scott on 7/18/2000 | |link|

Why oh why mus tI be an emotional quadreplegic???? you know the kind that just can't even begin to cope with the reality around me.
It must bew that romantic in me. Poor old sap sucker. you know these days I get so tired and I can't even begin to imagine my life
as it stands right now. I keep tring to put some romantic angle on it. Oh this is to toughen me up, this can't hurt as hard as it seems,
what would tyler durdin do in this sitution????
Well you know the thing of it is, I've got so much shit to worry about right now. It's been like a white static in my ear. T
posted by TJ Scott on 7/18/2000 | |link|

7/17/2000

What else is there really to say to any one any more. Seems ironic that i of all people who spent years frantically scratching at notepads, hoping that one day they would turn into the stuff of the real teen idols. Too Bad I understand history..and alot this joint is on its way out. no one here can hear and say that the man can survive any further in the current form.....my deep ramblings.....geez..
posted by TJ Scott on 7/17/2000 | |link|